Mental Illness is more than medications. Mental illness is more than therapy sessions. Mental illness is more than what those with mental illness show you! Mental illness is long sleepless nights It is crying in your room silently for hours, hoping no one will notice because you don’t want to be a burden. It is…
Tag: mental injury
Lost My Place
After months and months of not writing, I feel like I have lost my place in the world. Writing was one way I could express myself without the world getting a say. Of course, when it is on the World Wide Web, some people get a say. But it is always my choice to react…
Surrender
I have been recently listening to a song called Surrender by Natalie Taylor. I believe that this song is about a romantic relationship. But to me, this song describes my alters and myself (host). As they often say to me, they had to protect me to stay alive. While I’m not sure that I am…
Do You See What’s Beyond the Surface?
You see a girl with a nice family, supportive friends and what appears to be a nice life. You think I wish I could be her. She is a stay at home mom and has a loving husband. What in the world could she need? She has everything going for her. But I am here…
Letter to Those Who Failed Me
I have really been struggling with the fact that so many people missed me and failed me in my abuse as a child. Not just those who had no idea, but those that I tried to reach out to, tried to even give pieces of my puzzle to; I needed help. I needed safety. I…
Heartfelt Poetry
One of my alters wrote this poem on her own blog and I wanted to share it here as well! No pure heart exists Only broken and black Full of pain and hatred Jealousy and lust Once broken, no going back Only mending but never the same Trust gone and cynicism replaced Hope is impeding…
Dealing with New Identities Surfacing
Over the last few weeks, I have been dealing with a new identity that had surfaced at the end of my vacation. The thing about dealing with new identities is that it is often never the same when a new identity surfaces. For example, as I learned about my identities one at a time before…
Leaning In
Have you ever just wanted to lean into someone and feel their love for you, but you are so scared that you will be rejected the instant you start towards them? Well – I have! I do this almost constantly with the people in my life that love me. And it can be exhausting for…
Poetry
I wrote some poetry during my really tough time, that seems to not coming back. So, I thought I would share it here with you. Life is arduous Filled with misery and pain Not getting better Lost in the depths Falling closer to the end My heart breaks for you Questions fill my head Will…
Quarantine Positivity – Day 9
Sometimes it is really hard to stay positive in all of this, right? I know I have found myself down more times than not. I guess that is partially why I started writing these blogs about positivity. This is at least part of the day that I can force myself to look at something positive…
Living with Multiple Identities 