Mental Illness is more than medications. Mental illness is more than therapy sessions. Mental illness is more than what those with mental illness show you! Mental illness is long sleepless nights It is crying in your room silently for hours, hoping no one will notice because you don’t want to be a burden. It is…
Tag: Dissociative Identity Disorder
I Don’t Want to Hide in the Shadows Anymore
Most of my life, I have been in the background. I had to be able to stay in the shadows to hide the deep pain that I carry around. I had to wear the smile that the world needed and wanted from me, so I could continue to live. While I suffered deeply throughout my…
Getting Back into the Swing of Things
As my life has changed over the last year or so… I am finally able to get back into writing as well as posting! It is crazy how life can throw a curveball into your routine. You have to give up things for a time being. But I am going to bloom in the changes!…
Living with a Hidden Disability
Life seems so normal from the outside; the happy family, the good job, the nice house, and all the happiness anyone could ask for. But the life on the outside is not exactly what it seems. You see a happy family, but really what you are seeing is someone surviving; just going through the motions…
To My Person
There are so many things that I have wanted to say to you over the years, that often get pushed aside by life and busyness. It seems that too often life passes us by without the words that we all need to hear from those who are most dear to our hearts. I hope you…
The Program
Wheels turning Come to a stop New place Doors open Darkness everywhere Pain, it’s inevitable It’s starting No return I have to get out of here No reprieve in sight Electricity and probes Masks and dark robes Soldier you will be Follower you will be or dead you will be Speak nothing Do nothing Unless…
Just Keep Swimming
After a recent comment on one of my recent blogs, I decided to write a poem about what she had to say, “just keep swimming.” The poem hopefully can give hope but also speak to the struggles of life. Just Keep Swimming Bright sunny day Not a care in the world Clouds start to swarm…
Lost My Place
After months and months of not writing, I feel like I have lost my place in the world. Writing was one way I could express myself without the world getting a say. Of course, when it is on the World Wide Web, some people get a say. But it is always my choice to react…
Mother’s Day
Mother’s Day is probably one of the hardest days of my life. Not because I have lost a mother, but because I haven’t ever really had one. Not in the sense that my mother passed away early in my life or that I didn’t know her, but that she was the monster in my story….
Surrender
I have been recently listening to a song called Surrender by Natalie Taylor. I believe that this song is about a romantic relationship. But to me, this song describes my alters and myself (host). As they often say to me, they had to protect me to stay alive. While I’m not sure that I am…
Living with Multiple Identities 